Meals on Wheels

So Anne and I did a meals on wheels shift.  Our first guy had signs out front saying oxygen was needed and a ramp.  So we knew high needs.  On like our third knock he called out that he couldn't get up off the floor so we went In.  We walked in to set the food down and near as I can tell the vibration of our feet made this giant TV on a tiny wire case fall down.  We were across the room but it was spectacular.  TV on top of TV on top of wire stand.  Then we went in to him, explained that monstrosity and tried to pick him up.  It took both of us but we got him on the bed.  Luckily he was wheelchair strong in the arms. He told us once he got into his chair that the TV didn't work and could we dump it.  We were largely thrilled it didn't use to work and while I think Anne's true health answer was no we said yes. So we managed with slight mishaps to roll it into the car then into the dumpster.  While doing that we asked some innocuous question like do we need to keep a path to this oxygen open and it came out that his live in girlfriend had just died.  Which in retrospect was obvious.  Her bed with her oxygen next to it in the front room.  His funnygrumpy oldmannishness interspersed with most hopeless tears held in.  We left him smoking on his stoop alone in the world.

May I say for the record that this guy was by no means the representative sample of the meals on wheels circuit.  The rest were very thanks for the meals sure I had a great time with my daughter for Xmas peace out with decent lives and adequate care.  But Jesus.

I'm at Anne's and we've partied all the rest of the time.  We spent all yesterday setting up her China cabinet which we did in full.  That was a big and awesome project which involved unpacking heaps from her mom's house (who is moving).

Today is new years eve and we're doing lots of daytime fun.  A Rodin exhibit and my hair.  Woo life. Tomorrow to Tobey's.

Xmas 3 home to see

I'm home from toneys got an awesome Kindle fire and lots of beautiful clothes.  

Plus heaps of other stuff.    More itemized list later perhaps. 

Dinner at my favorite restaurant tonight. 

Hugs and peace.

True santacon

It's 9 minutes to midnight on xmas eve.  I'm about to watch it turn from Christmas eve to Christmas day.  It's a wonderful life was especially good this year and I was Clarence the good angel of xmas myself.  Hohoho and merrry xmas!!!!

Xmas Xfactor

Hey.  I got to the Us and all is well.   Everyone rules and I've seen them all. Weirdly exhausted but leaning into it.  Now at family farm for prexmas xmas.  My mom and I have been legends of the holiday spirit,  taking care of everything and experiencing the experience.  

I've been close to tears and rage all week.  But singing xmas carols through the airport.

I want to tell Jeremy. .. that I have a restless heart and a difficult mind.  But that I'm still so satisfied being with him after so many years. 

It's the last day of school

I learned something today.  I work so hard so that I do not cry. 

Now my life is going to change.  And when things change, they usually don't change back.